Love. . . Not for the faint of heart
I have been having many revelations about myself over the past few weeks. I have been attributing these revelations to my turning 25, but who knows.
I have realized that i am very tenderhearted, to such an extreme that the near death of my stray cat can bring me to tears. I realized that I have been blessed beyond measure to not have experienced much loss in my life. I have not had to experience much pain or hardship. In many ways I am grateful for the life that I have lived, but in others it scares me to wonder whether I will be strong enough when painful situations arise.
Sometimes I think that it is better not to fall in love, not to get a dog, not to love others so deeply because at some point, it will all come to an end. When I think about losing ones I love, having to put my dog to sleep, experiencing the pain that friends go through trying to have children, my heart literally hurts. I do not think I can stand the pain. Whenever anyone close to me is hurting and I can do nothing to help or alleviate their pain, I wonder if it is all worth it.
We allow others to get close to us, whether it's a significant other, a friend, or even family and we KNOW that they will cause us pain many times throughout our lives, yet we continue to engage in these relationships. We are not perfect beings and as hard as we strive not to, we will experience pain and we will cause pain to others. Scripture says that it is good for us to perservere, to go through difficult times and so I know that there is value in those times. However, the thought of them scare me and sadden me.
Mnay times I have asked myself if it is worth it, to love so deeply and risk losing that person. Many people guard themselves to avoid being hurt or because they have been hurt in the past. They don't allow others to love them or allow themselves to love others. I have the opposite problem. I dive headfirst in and give it my all, not stopping to question whether it is worth it until too late. I have experienced some heartache because of this but mostly have experience joy and incredible relationships. It's hard for me to imagine being any different. I'm glad that God made me this way and I'm glad God has surrounded me with people who are different than me and love differently than me so I can experience the other side of things.
Love is difficult, no matter what context it's in. Love takes work, it's not always happy and it's not always easy but it is always worth it.
"But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love. " 1 Co 13:13
I have realized that i am very tenderhearted, to such an extreme that the near death of my stray cat can bring me to tears. I realized that I have been blessed beyond measure to not have experienced much loss in my life. I have not had to experience much pain or hardship. In many ways I am grateful for the life that I have lived, but in others it scares me to wonder whether I will be strong enough when painful situations arise.
Sometimes I think that it is better not to fall in love, not to get a dog, not to love others so deeply because at some point, it will all come to an end. When I think about losing ones I love, having to put my dog to sleep, experiencing the pain that friends go through trying to have children, my heart literally hurts. I do not think I can stand the pain. Whenever anyone close to me is hurting and I can do nothing to help or alleviate their pain, I wonder if it is all worth it.
We allow others to get close to us, whether it's a significant other, a friend, or even family and we KNOW that they will cause us pain many times throughout our lives, yet we continue to engage in these relationships. We are not perfect beings and as hard as we strive not to, we will experience pain and we will cause pain to others. Scripture says that it is good for us to perservere, to go through difficult times and so I know that there is value in those times. However, the thought of them scare me and sadden me.
Mnay times I have asked myself if it is worth it, to love so deeply and risk losing that person. Many people guard themselves to avoid being hurt or because they have been hurt in the past. They don't allow others to love them or allow themselves to love others. I have the opposite problem. I dive headfirst in and give it my all, not stopping to question whether it is worth it until too late. I have experienced some heartache because of this but mostly have experience joy and incredible relationships. It's hard for me to imagine being any different. I'm glad that God made me this way and I'm glad God has surrounded me with people who are different than me and love differently than me so I can experience the other side of things.
Love is difficult, no matter what context it's in. Love takes work, it's not always happy and it's not always easy but it is always worth it.
"But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love. " 1 Co 13:13
posted by Sam at 11:31 AM
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