Quarter Life Crisis
This Sunday I woke up, realizing that I am no longer in my "early 20's" but have transitioned into my "mid-twenties" and am on the downhill slide to 30. Earlier in the week, I started getting upset thinking about turning 25. I told Dan I did not want to celebrate my birthday and just wanted to pretend that it was not happening and go on telling everyone that I am a mere 24 years old. He gently informed me that I could only pull that off for so long and also reminded me that I would not get any presents if I did not celebrate my birthday. grrr.
I
know many of my friends have turned 25 and wonder if they all had this same fear strike in their heart. Gone are the lazy days of summer, the spring breaks, the youth group trips, the lack of responsibiity. Here to stay are the mortgages, the full time jobs, the bills, the full time responsibilities. That is scary to me. I still FEEL young.
My mom was informing me this weekend that on her 25th birthday (her birthday is one day after mine), she had a 4 year old daughter and was thinking that when she (me) was 25, she would be 46. She couldn't possibly imagine that day. . . yet it's here.
What will the next 25 years of my life bring? 25 more years and I will be 50!!!! i cannot even begin to fathom that. What do I want to be when I grow up? I am running out of time and refuse to believe that I am "grown up". Sometimes I think that being married automatically transforms you into a grown up. I don't know why I have that mindset but it seems that married people get older and more responsible and go to bed earlier (of course we all know why that is:) ). Maybe i'll feel old if I get married. Maybe I'll old if I get a new job. Maybe i won't feel old until I'm a mom myself. Heck, maybe I'll never feel old and will just keep living with this disillusionment that I am stil 15.
I wonder if this is what a quarter life crisis feels like. . .
I
know many of my friends have turned 25 and wonder if they all had this same fear strike in their heart. Gone are the lazy days of summer, the spring breaks, the youth group trips, the lack of responsibiity. Here to stay are the mortgages, the full time jobs, the bills, the full time responsibilities. That is scary to me. I still FEEL young.
My mom was informing me this weekend that on her 25th birthday (her birthday is one day after mine), she had a 4 year old daughter and was thinking that when she (me) was 25, she would be 46. She couldn't possibly imagine that day. . . yet it's here.
What will the next 25 years of my life bring? 25 more years and I will be 50!!!! i cannot even begin to fathom that. What do I want to be when I grow up? I am running out of time and refuse to believe that I am "grown up". Sometimes I think that being married automatically transforms you into a grown up. I don't know why I have that mindset but it seems that married people get older and more responsible and go to bed earlier (of course we all know why that is:) ). Maybe i'll feel old if I get married. Maybe I'll old if I get a new job. Maybe i won't feel old until I'm a mom myself. Heck, maybe I'll never feel old and will just keep living with this disillusionment that I am stil 15.
I wonder if this is what a quarter life crisis feels like. . .
posted by Sam at 3:03 PM
5 Comments:
I have definitely not gotten that far in life. scary...turning 23 was rough enough!
YEP, that's what it feels like. (see my September 10 post).
great...I hoped someone would tell me it's the greatest year of your life, or that people begin taking your more seriously, or that there's great pride in being a grown up. . .nope none of that. basically it just sucks. Hannah, hold on to 23 and don't let it go!
first thing: about your last post. if you want...for your birthday i will give you money to visit your "friend" in texas instead of funding another trip to hawaii. you could make TWO trips to texas with the same amount. watch for the money in the mail. don't use it for hawaii, only for texas. you might be able to visit before i leave.
thing number two: i think we all know what john mayer meant when he talked about quarter life crisis. scary isn't it? we are moving out of the invincible "i am going to change the world" mindset and into reality of where we are at in the world. it can be a paralyzing realization...i admit..it does stun you at times but it is also the most exhilrating realization as well. 25?! still feeling young and yet have some life experience acruing. life is good....we still have 75 years ahead of us....better start doing stuff you enjoy rather than just getting by. i am starting by going to india. plan something crazy and adventurous....or maybe just start by volunteering at an old folks home.....whatever it is...do whatever it is that makes you feel alive.
What is up with you giving me money for holidays now? have we been friends so long that you can really think of nothing else?! ;) and you're right, i do need to get down to see you. . .however, i remember Texas in the summer, sick.
but if you promise me we could lounge by the pool most of the time. . .doesn't hannah have a pool?
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