Wedding Blues

I have been thinking a lot about getting married, which i think is natural for a 25 year old girl who has been in a relationship for 3 + years. The older I ger, the less likely it seems to me that I will have an actual wedding. I have less friends than when i was in college, i am more financially indpendent(so it seems a little more weird having my parents pay for it..but you can bet they will!), the thought of planning a wedding makes me happy, but also a little overwhelmed. Also, let's be honest, after this long we certainly don't want to wait 6 months to plan a wedding. I often think that maybe i will just fly somewhere tropical and get married on the beach.

The thought of getting married on a beach leaves me with mixed emotions. I think it would be easier, less stressful, beautiful, and altogether a good idea. Then I think about all the things I would miss out on such as having some friends and family there who could not fly to an island, having lots of people see me in my wedding dress, living out the dream of every little girl, etc.

No, I am not getting married but have really been thinking about it lately. It makes me sad cuz i feel like i've missed out on a wedding dream because i wasn't married right out of college. I am still trying to figure out if i am holding to a dream because it's something i've always wanted or because it's something society says i SHOULD want. I really do think it would be sweet to get married on the beach and a heck of a lot less stressful. Guess i still got some time to make those decisions...

Taking Your Votes

ok so i'm taking a vote. should i get my hair cut? and i mean cut. Probably a little shorter than this picture. Now, we all know Meg Ryan's hair looks the great no matter what kind of hair cut she has but the big question is, will I? Taking your votes now.

random numbers

Time for some more lists!!

50-hours per week i generally work now. hey , it's a residential facility and the kids are always there!
25 -minutes i sat and watched the 9/11 stuff on CNN when i should have been getting ready for work the other day
3-times i cried while watching the memorial service
75-times i wished i was back in hawaii (hence the pic above)
11-hours i spent on the road last week
12-hours it took for me to get certified to teach the GED. Anyone need it? i'm your woman!
3-days i'm on call this weekend
2-more weekends before i go to chicago
2-more days before i see Dan again
1-hour i drove this week on a whim to meet him for dinner in Mobery, simply because i wanted to show him my new outfit that i thought he would like.(and cuz i missed him)
7-number of times a day myspace ticks me off
20-the age my brother turned on Tuesday
26-the age Elisa turned on Tuesday
30-the day Meagan will turn 26
12-march, day i officially become old.
1-more day until official payday! bring on the new salary!
3,000-miles away my dear friends jen and kristin are now that they have moved out of the 'villle
2-months i've been waiting for Kristin to start her blog:)
3-suprises i have for Dan when he comes to visit this weekend :) :)
100-amount of joy i get from the gmail smiley faces
2-parents i have wanted to put some sense into today.
10-kids i have wanted to put some sense into today.
3-kids i had to yell at
1-kid i had to remind that she wasn't my boss and could not demand that i do something.
???-number of comments i will receive :)

An official townie

I became an official townie this weekend. For those of you who have never lived in Kirksville, you may be wondering what a "townie" is. It's basically a white trash person living in Kirksville; someone who sits on their couch-that is on their front porch. Someone who spends their money buying cigarrettes and mountain dew while their children are running wild in the front yard. Someone who rides their riding lawn mower around town as transportation....errr. So this is how i became an official townie. I borrowed a friend's riding lawn mower because my yard was out of control and would've taken me hours to do it with a push mower. The catch to borrowing this mower though was that i had to get it to my house. Well, being that they really don't live too far from me, probably 1/2 mile to 3/4 mile away, the best solution was to ride it. That's right people, I rode a riding lawn mower down Osteopathy(it's a pretty busy road for those of you who don't know what it is) on a Saturday morning. I even rode it back after I was done. I am now an official townie.