Gettin' old
Today i had lunch with a good friend from college who was in my small group. She just graduated college and is going through the process of trying to find a job. She was married a year ago and her and her husband are moving to St. Louis in August for him to attend Covenant seminary there. She was expressing me to her frustration and mixed emotions about finding a job and stated she felt like she was going through a quarter life crisis. I thought this would be a good topic of a post because I know exactly how she feels.
When i graduated college, i stuck around and interned at the BSU while working full time at juvenile Justice Center. That year i was still immersed in college life and doing the college thing but i was slowly starting to get a glimpse of the real world as i would have to go to work while all my friends had a game night at my house. After that year, I lived on my own and pretty much exited the college world completely. I got more involved in my church and started making friends with people i worked with and getting made fun of by my college friends for going to bed at 9:30. It was during this time that I went through an interesting time spiritually. I was stuck in the middle. I didn't quite fit in as an "Adult" but I wasn't a "college kid" either. I didn't fit in with the married category but didn't feel i could join a singles group cuz i was in a dating relationship. My faith was redefined for a second time in my life. I was no longer constantly surrounded by faithful Christians who did "christian things". I felt that since i was not involved in a "ministry activity" every night, such as in college, then I was somehow failing God.
I feel like my God really showed me some amazing things about myself during this time. He guided me into being the woman he wanted me to become(and still is..i'm nowhere close!:)). My faith was no longer defined by how many BSU activities i attend or don't attend. It wasn't defined by how many "theological conversations" i could have in one week. My faith was defined by how God was working in my life. I felt that the evidence of God's work was more evident because I was not constantly surrounded my Christians. He brought new people into my life who i have formed amazing friendships with, as well as been able to share the gospel with them,not all the time in words but with my life.I learned to appreciate the many generations in my church and found great wisdom in so many of the people there. I learned that community does not always look a certain way. I discovered that I could be closer to God than I ever had been and not attend a single ministry event that week. I learned that it is difficult to be in this position. It's a strange time in one's life. A time where you don't quite fit into any stereotype or group. It's a growing time, not only in your relationship with Christ but also within yourself. I'm glad that i'm through that time but I'm equally glad that I went through it. It has helped shape me into who I am today and who i will become tomorrow.
When i graduated college, i stuck around and interned at the BSU while working full time at juvenile Justice Center. That year i was still immersed in college life and doing the college thing but i was slowly starting to get a glimpse of the real world as i would have to go to work while all my friends had a game night at my house. After that year, I lived on my own and pretty much exited the college world completely. I got more involved in my church and started making friends with people i worked with and getting made fun of by my college friends for going to bed at 9:30. It was during this time that I went through an interesting time spiritually. I was stuck in the middle. I didn't quite fit in as an "Adult" but I wasn't a "college kid" either. I didn't fit in with the married category but didn't feel i could join a singles group cuz i was in a dating relationship. My faith was redefined for a second time in my life. I was no longer constantly surrounded by faithful Christians who did "christian things". I felt that since i was not involved in a "ministry activity" every night, such as in college, then I was somehow failing God.
I feel like my God really showed me some amazing things about myself during this time. He guided me into being the woman he wanted me to become(and still is..i'm nowhere close!:)). My faith was no longer defined by how many BSU activities i attend or don't attend. It wasn't defined by how many "theological conversations" i could have in one week. My faith was defined by how God was working in my life. I felt that the evidence of God's work was more evident because I was not constantly surrounded my Christians. He brought new people into my life who i have formed amazing friendships with, as well as been able to share the gospel with them,not all the time in words but with my life.I learned to appreciate the many generations in my church and found great wisdom in so many of the people there. I learned that community does not always look a certain way. I discovered that I could be closer to God than I ever had been and not attend a single ministry event that week. I learned that it is difficult to be in this position. It's a strange time in one's life. A time where you don't quite fit into any stereotype or group. It's a growing time, not only in your relationship with Christ but also within yourself. I'm glad that i'm through that time but I'm equally glad that I went through it. It has helped shape me into who I am today and who i will become tomorrow.
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