. . .And the Fireworks Flew

Every once in a while, throughout this whole "get in shape" plan, Dan and I come to blows over something. Last night was one of those times. We went to Wal-Mart to do a little grocery shopping and to work on picking out some healthy food items. I felt that I had been doing a MUCH better job at finding healthy food, etc. Well. . . i have a weakness for cereal. I love cereal, any cereal and that aisle is where a very good night turned very bad, very quickly.
I was picking out some cereal to eat and picked up a bag of Tootie Fruties(yes, that's the off brand to Fruit loops). After i put them in my cart, Dan gently tells me he thinks maybe i should pick out a more healthy cereal. I calmly, yet defensively inform him that i have some shredded wheat at my house and that's healthy enough. He tells me again i should get something else and i tell him i am not going to unless he is going to enforce the, "trust him" rule. Which he does. So my blood is boiling at this point and in a moment that I am soo not proud of, I take the Tootie Fruities out of the cart and throw them on the shelf and say "you pick it out then".. I even had to crack a small smile because i could not believe the way i just acted. Then we move on to the cracker aisle, where i pick out some crackers to snack on at work. Further down the aisle we are discussing cooking more healthy meals and trying new foods and Dan makes the comment that i will have to prepare healthy snacks. I point out to him that i picked out some healthy snacks and point to the crackers in my cart. He tells me that those aren't really that healthy. At this point i get angry and say something to the effect of how i can never pick out the right food and am just going to let him pick everything out and again throw the crackers on the shelf. Well, this makes him mad and he says "fine " and storms off to pick out MY food! Anyways, to make a long story short, I started crying and went outside wal-mart so i didn't look like a freak. i then waited in the front of the store for him to finish and we walked out silently to my car. As we were driving to my house, he asks me if i want to talk. Through my sobbing i tell him that i want to feel like i can do it and that even though maybe the crackers weren't the best thing in the world to eat, they were certainly a ton better than what i would have chosen 4 months ago. He slams on the brakes and turns the car around and heads back to Wal-mart. We get to the parking lot and park and i ask him what we were doing. He said, " you're right, you're absolutely right and I'm sorry. Let's go get those crackers." I didn't want to go back in because i looked like a freak from crying but we did get to talk and he apologized for not being more encouraging and i apologized for being so hateful. I am going to work on not being so defensive when it comes to this and he is going to work on being more encouraging and telling me how proud he is of me.

Why i love him. . .when i got to my house and was unloading my groceries, i saw that there were Tootie Fruities in a bag. . ..
he came to pilates with me tonight and although did not participate, he watched me and swam some laps.

In the end, the fireworks show that looked like it was going to get out of control, ended up having a grande finale that we all hope for on the 4th of July.